Self Love Journey
Lately, I have had a lot of time to write, and reflect. What I have come to realize at a deeper level for me is that every single experience I have on this Earth as a human being is learning to love and accept myself. I reflect on the difficult childhood that I had growing up, how much pain and suffering that were there, I realized that they have created the most beautiful parts of who I am. The pain softened my heart, humbled me. Also encouraged me to build a greater life for myself, emotionally, spiritually, financially. When I think about the times in my past when I was bullied, felt so alone, like I had no one, I am grateful for those times because it created a fire within me wanting to create community and belonging where I am heading.
I am most grateful for the path that I have chosen to walk on because I have chosen authentic decisions for me along the way, no matter how hard. I have always decided to follow my heart and my soul. Since my near death experience in 2015, there was never a moment that I have gone against what my heart or soul wanted. If I did, it was so little and temporary that never had a significance. At every big turning point, I have chosen the path of my soul. I have chosen to travel, to explore, to attending retreats, healing. I have chosen what felt right for me, and because of that I am proud of the person that I have become and becoming.
I remember the most impactful thing I read from the Top 5 Regrets of The Dying, “I did not live true to who I am or what I want”, I learnt that it was the most important thing for me to do so before I die. The most interesting thing is that the more I walk on the path of my soul, the clearer the guidance comes for me, the stronger the energy, and evident the path.
Sometimes, I think back about the people that have hurt me, judged me, treated me like I didn’t matter, I realized that they were the ones carrying a lot of shadows and projecting them onto me. And unless they have healed those shadows, they continue to be controlled by them. It’s sad. But it also made me realize that they don’t have it better than me just because they bullied, or abused me. They really don’t. That’s not to excuse their behaviours whatsoever.
What I have learnt is that the most important thing for me in life is continuing to love, accept myself and live life with joy. That is my purpose.
